To Lisa
From Eric
Hello. How are you? I wish you could answer me back. I’m not
gonna ramble on about how it’s unfair that you were taken away
from me and everyone else who loved you, because that would be
pointless. I just want you to know how much I loved you, and
how much I still do. I know you got sad sometimes, and that
sometimes you felt like no one really cared about you, and that
sometimes you thought life wasn’t worth living anymore. But you
got through that and saw that life was worth living. I know I
wasn’t there for most of the time that you were away at school,
but something happened there, something that turned you around.
I did my part, and whoever helped you turn everything around at
school did theirs. Most of all, you did your part. I mean,
you always thought I was the strong one, right? Well, you know
better. You’d probably laugh if I told you that I cried for the
first time in my adult life when I finally let myself believe
you were gone. Or that I didn’t really stop for weeks. I miss
you, Lisa.
I miss you terribly, and I wonder what on Earth can replace you
in my life as a reason to go on, to keep fighting against all
the bad in the world.
So I won’t replace you. I’ll keep you near my heart always and
let you take care of me for awhile, just like I tried those last
few years to take care of you. I did the best I could, Lisa.
“May you find the truth, wherever it is,” right? Goodbye. You
will be missed.
